Saturday was my mom's birthday. She would have been 66 years old. When I woke that morning, I wondered if I would feel her presence on her special day. After all, this is the third birthday since she's been gone. The grief has slowly abated from the constant turbulence of crashing waves where I could… Continue reading Signs of Love
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Two Years
Two years. Each day this week I have glanced at the calendar, the bright days of April quickly transforming into May. I didn't want to turn the page to a new month; I wanted to freeze April for just a little bit longer, just as I had two years ago. Just a little more time.… Continue reading Two Years
The Gaming Child
He received the game as a Christmas gift. With the other surprises of the day, he didn't open the game right away, but when he did, he was hooked. He sat for hours in his gaming chair, eyes glued to the screen, as he manipulated the controller in his hand to make the character move… Continue reading The Gaming Child
For the Love of Reading
"What kind of books do you like to read?" I have to laugh when I hear someone ask this question, especially to children. Many will answer with a series or author name; a few will respond with a genre. Some will stare blankly with a shrug of their shoulders indicating disinterest in the question altogether.… Continue reading For the Love of Reading
On The Day My Mother Died
Today is the day my mother died. The date has loomed on the calendar like the storm clouds of an impending storm, much like they did last year. The only difference between this year and last is knowing when the rain would fall and hearts would be shattered. Several times in this year of mourning,… Continue reading On The Day My Mother Died
11 Months
Today marks 11 months since I sat on my mom's bedside, held her hand, and watched helplessly as she took her last breath. 11 months since eyes that sparkle, 11 months since squeals of delight; 11 months of silent stillness, 11 months to write. This time last year was the beginning of the end.… Continue reading 11 Months
RAK Week 2018 – The Gift
Today is the start of Random Act of Kindness week in the US! I'm so excited!! Promoted by the Random Acts of Kindness Foundation, based out of Denver, Colorado, this is a week-long celebration of kindness ending on National Random Acts of Kindness Day (February 17). The week spans over Valentine's Day which is a… Continue reading RAK Week 2018 – The Gift
First Birthday in Heaven
Today is my mom's birthday. In my memory, she is frozen in time. Vibrant. Laughing. Joyful. Alive. In my first motherless birthday post from September, I described some of the birthday memories my mom and I shared over the years. One of my favorites was from her 60th birthday where I surprised her with a birthday brunch… Continue reading First Birthday in Heaven
My First Motherless Birthday
Today is my first motherless birthday. The weight of those words has been lingering in the shadows, creeping up on me as the calendar page flips from August to September and the chill of fall permeates darkened nights. I've been pretty good at evading the thought as life returns to its natural state of busy:… Continue reading My First Motherless Birthday
Four Months
Today marks four months on the calendar. Four months of silence. Four months of "after." Four months of missing my mom. I'm reminded of her often, especially when I notice something unexpected. Since she passed away in May, I have become more attuned to those moments, pausing to soak them in and… Continue reading Four Months
